I give great credit to my Friends at Sho Time(c) for writing the show Californication. I actually find that I only write meaningful things after watching a few episodes, this of course is due to the fact the the main character is a writer and I think he finds his muse in the show.....I find the show as my muse. I have the benefit of having a long time friend as a name in the credits and this makes the show even more connected. I tend to watch each episode more than once, due to the fact the first viewing is usually in a drunk, and then when I watch it again I get the jist of it that I can remember. The latest episode used a similar quote to which I have used in the past, I'm not sure if it was coincidence or if I just let my worlds collide but "the muse" said "It is hard to have a long term relationship with someone else's potential"....My long term saying is that "You should never fall in love with potential." I don't see much difference between the two quotes.
This past year I experienced many ups and downs, I have left a "second" life for a Third, now understand that I am happy with the 3rd and still kind of lost on the second, I knew that building a house would come to an end and that I would have to move on to the third but at the time it was not as easy as it would seem. I think we (I) could not imagine ever being in a position to have to make these choices. I am working on the issues of happy vs. unknowing.
During this time the 3rd life has convinced me that seeking help is a benefit and not a detriment. Serving in the Marine Corps for 4 years during the first major conflict the U.S.A. had been in since Viet Nam has earned me some "street cred" so to speak, and as such I am seeking the treatments and medical care that is allotted me. This is not something that I would have done in the past years, I see it as a weakness that has been weighing heavy on me for a long time....The good news is I am now getting that help. I need to say thanks to the people who basically made me seek the help. I have the appointments scheduled, and am actually looking forward to the results. Either way I will have the answers I need.
On the issue of Addicted to an Addict.....
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