Memories, memoires, and Me

O.K. my goal in the first post was to ask why do you fall in love with a guy like me who has major addiction issues.  JD, I know you don't see it yet but I am not writing this blog for sympathy or disbelief, I have major addiction problems, and all the problems that go with that.  Moving on, to memories, memoires and me,  some of you have known me for many years and some of you are meeting me for the first time, in any case I will not say that it has been a good or bad life so far, but I will not also say that it hasn't been a challenge.  I started out with the basic family, a half brother with a step dad, and a mother who later in life admitted that I wasn't actually the planned second child.  My mother had the normal relationships of the late 60's she was married to my brothers father, then later she met my future step father, in the interim Viet Nam took place and while my future step father went to war my mother dated my soon to become father.  A dream or a memory I'm not sure but I have a vivid vision of the day he walked out of our apt. on Pine st. (Auburn, Ca)  Odd day of snow for Auburn but there it was and the stairs were covered in ice and snow and I just knew that was his trip home.  In fact I'm not sure he even lived with us there but that day he was there and I knew he wasn't coming back.  In retrospect I think my future step father may have been back from Viet Nam and that may have been the issue.  Anyway we soon moved to Citrus Heights to a duplex that as I grew older I only remember as having very thin walls.  The arguments never stopped.  but at the age of 5/6/7 you don't understand the meanings of the arguments, but damn at that age you are interested to know what is going on so you sneak to the door of the closed bedroom to listen. 
I attended school for K/1/and /2 in that area, I don't remember much of it other than I danced the Mexican hat dance at the Bicentennial fair at school.  We soon moved back to Auburn.


Let me know if this is of any interest to any of you and I will continue.  It doesn't seem that it is related to the subject line but I am trying to give you some insight.  I just don't want to type for 6 more hours unless your want to hear it.